Faith, Spiritual Growth, Surrender

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God's Plan Over Mine

This is a love letter to every woman who has ever clutched her planner with one hand and her Bible with the other, whispering, “Lord, I want Your will… but can we please do it my way?” If that’s you, pull up a seat. You are in good company here.

When My Plans Looked Perfect on Paper

For as long as I can remember, I’ve been a planner. The color-coded-calendar, five-year-goal, “what’s-next?” kind of woman. I had my career mapped out, my relationship timeline sketched, even my dream city pinned on a vision board. If you’d asked me a few years ago, I would have told you I trusted God—as long as He stayed inside my blueprint.

Faith, to me then, looked like asking God to bless what I had already decided. I wasn’t really asking, “Lord, what is Your plan?” I was saying, “Lord, here’s my plan—can You sign off on it?” It felt safer that way. Predictable. Manageable. Controlled. But here’s what I’ve learned: God loves us too much to let us stay in control when our control is quietly destroying our peace.

Faith Isn’t a Backup Plan

There came a season when everything I had lined up started to unravel. The promotion I just “knew” was mine went to someone else. The relationship I thought was leading to marriage ended with, “You’re amazing, but…” The apartment application I had already mentally decorated was denied for reasons that made no sense. One by one, my carefully stacked plans toppled over like dominoes, and I was left staring at the mess, asking God, “Why would You let this happen?”

I wish I could tell you I responded with instant, holy surrender. I didn’t. I cried. I argued. I replayed every conversation, every email, every “no” in my mind, searching for where I’d gone wrong. But slowly, in the middle of the disappointment, a gentle truth settled into my heart: faith is not what I fall back on when my plans fail; faith is the foundation I stand on before I make a plan at all.

💡 Heart Check: Is your faith leading your plans, or are your plans leading your faith?

The Holy Discomfort of Surrender

We talk about surrender in church like it’s a pretty word. It looks beautiful on a T-shirt or a mug: “I surrender all.” But when God actually starts asking for what we’ve been holding onto—that relationship, that job, that timeline—it doesn’t feel pretty. It feels like loss. It feels like giving up. It feels like standing at the edge of a cliff with no guarantee of what happens if you step forward.

One night, after yet another door had closed, I sat on my bedroom floor with my journal open and my heart exhausted. I wrote out all the things I was mad about, all the places I felt God had let me down. And then, almost without thinking, I wrote these words: “Lord, I’m tired of fighting You. If Your plan is different from mine, I choose Yours—even if I don’t understand it yet.”

That sentence didn’t magically fix my circumstances. But it did something in me. It was the beginning of real surrender—not the cute, Instagram-caption version, but the kind that costs you your pride, your illusion of control, and your need to be the one driving the car. Surrender is not weakness; it is a holy agreement to let God be God in your life.

When Disappointment Becomes Divine Redirection

Looking back now, I can see how every “no” I received was really a hand on my back, gently turning me toward a better “yes.” At the time, it felt like rejection. But from where I stand today, I recognize it as redirection. God was not punishing me; He was protecting me from things I had no idea were waiting down the road I wanted so badly to travel.

That job I didn’t get? A year later, the entire department was restructured, and people I admired were suddenly out of work. That relationship I cried over? I later learned things about his character that would have broken my heart in marriage. That apartment I didn’t move into? The neighborhood changed dramatically within months, and safety became a serious concern. At the time, all I saw was closed doors. Now, I see a loving Father standing in front of doors that would have led me into harm, saying, “Daughter, not this way. I have better for you.”

📌 Key Takeaway: What feels like rejection may actually be God’s redirection, steering you away from what you think you want toward what He knows you need.

Faith in the In-Between Seasons

Here’s the part we don’t talk about enough: there is often a long, quiet stretch between our surrender and our breakthrough. We love to testify about the miracle, but we don’t always share about the months—or years—of not knowing, not seeing, and still choosing to believe. That in-between place can feel lonely. You’ve let go of what was, but you haven’t yet stepped into what will be. You’re walking by faith, but your feelings are lagging behind, asking, “Are we sure about this?”

In that in-between, God did something tender in my heart. He taught me that faith is not measured by how loudly I shout when things go right, but by how quietly I trust when nothing seems to be moving. He invited me to know Him, not just as the God who gives blessings, but as the God who is my blessing. My Provider when the paycheck wasn’t what I expected. My Comforter when the phone didn’t ring. My Friend when I felt misunderstood and unseen.

The Peace That Comes from Letting God Lead

One of the most surprising gifts of choosing God’s plan over mine has been peace. Not the kind of peace that comes from everything going my way, but the kind that settles deep in my spirit even when the outside looks uncertain. It’s the peace of knowing, “I am not out here by myself. I am not carrying my life alone. I am being led by Someone who loves me more than I love me, and sees farther than I can see.”

When I surrendered, my circumstances didn’t instantly become picture-perfect. But my heart posture changed. Instead of waking up every morning with anxiety about how to force my plans to work, I began waking up with a simple prayer: “Lord, what are You doing today, and how can I agree with it?” That shift—from “Bless what I’m doing” to “Let me join what You’re doing”—brought a calm I didn’t know I was missing.

💡 Pro Tip for Your Soul: Peace doesn’t come from having all the answers. It comes from trusting the One who does.

What Trusting God’s Plan Looks Like in Real Life

Trusting a higher plan isn’t just a spiritual concept; it shows up in the small, everyday choices. It looks like:

• Saying “no” to opportunities that look good but don’t carry God’s peace.

• Choosing to pray before you post, reply, accept, or decline.

• Allowing your plans to be interrupted if you sense God leading a different way.

• Refusing to measure your worth by how closely your life matches your old timeline.

For me, trusting God’s plan meant staying in a city I had planned to leave, because He opened a door for ministry work I never saw coming. It meant starting a project that didn’t make sense on paper but carried a deep sense of “this is Me” from God. It meant forgiving myself for not being where I thought I’d be by now and embracing where God has me instead.

If You’re Standing at Your Own Crossroads

Maybe as you read this, you’re right in the middle of your own plot twist. The job fell through. The relationship shifted. The plan you were so sure of is suddenly on shaky ground. If that’s you, I want you to hear this from one Black woman of faith to another, or to any sister reading this right now: you are not failing because your plans changed. Sometimes, the most powerful faith move you can make is to open your hands and say, “God, I release what I thought this had to be.”

Your disappointment does not disqualify you. Your questions do not scare God. He can handle your tears, your “why,” and your “this isn’t fair.” Bring all of that to Him. Lay it out honestly, and then dare to pray a brave prayer: “Lord, if this is not Your best for me, I don’t want it. Redirect me. Lead me. I trust You more than I trust my plan.”

Choosing God’s Plan Over Mine, Again and Again

I wish I could say I surrendered once and never struggled again, but that wouldn’t be honest. This is a daily walk. There are still moments when I catch myself trying to snatch the pen back from God and rewrite the script. But every time I remember how His “no” turned into my protection, how His delay became my development, and how His redirection led me to rooms I never would have chosen but now can’t imagine my life without—I relax my grip a little more.

God’s plan over mine is not just a phrase I say; it has become the posture of my heart. It means I still dream, still plan, still set goals—but I hold them with open hands. It means I invite God into the conversation before I commit. It means I trust that if He closes a door, He is kind enough, strong enough, and wise enough to open another one in His timing.

A Final Prayer for Your Journey of Surrender

As you close this page and step back into your own story, I want to leave you with a simple prayer you can whisper when the tug-of-war between your plan and God’s plan feels especially strong:

“God, I thank You that Your thoughts toward me are good, even when I don’t understand what You’re doing. I surrender my timeline, my expectations, and my need to control every outcome. Where I see disappointment, show me Your divine redirection. Trade my anxiety for Your peace, my striving for Your strength, and my plan for Your perfect will. Teach me to trust that You are not late, You are not distant, and You have not forgotten me. I choose Your plan over mine—today, tomorrow, and every day after. Amen.”

May you know, deep in your bones, that you are held by a God who writes better stories than we could ever script for ourselves. And may you find, as I did, that the safest, most peaceful place you can live is in the center of His plan, even when you can’t yet see the whole picture.